Favorite flavor of poison.

It's said that we all choose our poison and majority of us would choose no other way to be crippled emotionally than through said poison. But what if i told you that you never had to pick poison, you will never be able to transform that poison into an antidote its always going to be poison. If you dont understand what exactly im talking about its the same guy you've been trying to convert into the man you hope he will become if you stick through it long enough; but is he really changing? No, he does not need a little bit more love, No , he's not going through a phase (a phase doesn't last for 4  years honey) and hell no he doesn't need a little bit more time to see the wonderful girl/woman he has in his life. It'll never change, he wont wake up one day and realize that he's been an ass to you for the majority of your relationship. You picked poison, and obviously its working on you ; no amount of convincing yourself that you'll be immune to the poison will ever materialize to be your reality, Stopping setting yourselves up for damnation, you will never convert the "bad boy" because he doesn't want to be converted nor can he be converted. No amount of crying, pleading and snot filled proclamations of love will change this. You honestly believe that consuming enough of the poison you're giving yourself another chance at victory of converting it to an antidote but did you ever stop to think that the possibility of you becoming destroyed by the poison rises excessively each time?

Bet you didn't think bout that! Its hard, i know but you have to let go; you'll learn from this because experience is always needed. Don't put yourself in a position to be trying to play mad scientist, by trying to convert your poison to an antidote. it may just get worse. Good Luck!